Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

Update in the month that I didn't post:

I have a car again.

I have a job again (although part time, but with very good pay for starting out).

That's all changed, and yet I go on not feeling any more happy than before. Relieved, perhaps, but honestly, very little excites me in a positive manner -- pushes my right buttons.

I'm happy to have freedom, sure. I'm happy to be fighting to improve my life. I'm happy that I could buy Assassin's Creed IV (DAMN YOU UBISOFT FOR TUGGING AT THE DYING HEART STRINGS THAT ONCE BEAT SO HAPPILY FOR YOU I mean, it's a good game, but that's a different story) knowing that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't mean a whole lot.

In the end, it just feels like a small step in the right direction, something to be happy and relieved about, but another reminder that there's a long journey ahead.

Don't get me wrong, though. I'm very thankful for the changes. I've just got to use them to make more, instead of sitting still with them.

On another note:

As established in the previous entry, travel writing is my dream. Much to see and do, and share. Of course, inspiration is the true goal, that my future travels should encourage the travels of anybody who would read or hear about them.

I want to chase the horizon. This was derived from one of the final lines of Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl, wherein Depp's Jack Sparrow tells his crew, "Bring me that horizon."

Of course, there are differences. The horizon will always be untouchable, always in the distance. For somebody to bring something to you, it would require very little on your part more than a command.

My life doesn't work that way very often, nor should it. Just as with anything else one's heart desires, I believe it requires work.

To tell somebody to bring you a woman you have a romantic inclination towards is along the lines of kidnapping and slavery. A good woman deserves work, to be shown that she is desired, and this is the case with the horizon.

There's always something new somewhere just over the line of the earth. Something to see, people to meet.

It's all a part of the bucket list. I hope to see as much as I can before the ability to do so is beyond my reach.

What's on the list? Well...

-Get married. This part, I feel requires a little more luck than all other entries on the list, because I'm not going to rush it and end up with what my dad had. I love my father, but that's one of those things I know he lives with every day.

-Earn a comfortable living. Of course, that's quite a subjective statement, but in my definition, a comfortable living would be able to afford my bills and a few luxuries without spending but 40% of what I have. Fortunately, I don't want for too much.

-Various places to visit. Well, duh.

-Eat at Sukiyabashi Jiro just once, before Jiro Ono kicks the bucket. If you haven't seen Jiro Dreams of Sushi, you need to. Provided of course, you enjoy sushi.

-Date a Cowboys cheerleader. Okay, this one's entirely optional.

-Write a novel. The ideas come and go, and I really need to carry around a notepad again.

Short, sure. I'll probably add more to the list as time goes on, but I really had to whittle down what it is I truly wanted in life after realizing that most of what I wanted was far too extravagant. Simplicity makes for a far happier lifestyle, and I want to finally make my life my own.